Yes, I Really Did
About this work:
I have always been interested in the question of how one can integrate elements of various musical traditions into new pieces. No matter what route one takes, the challenge is always to use something from one’s past experience as a point of departure – to integrate the materials so completely, that something new emerges. If a piece fails to do this, it risks becoming no more than a pastiche of stylistic cliches. In recent years, I have made tape and tape and instrument pieces that have deliberately revealed and quoted well-known music and text from sources as wide-ranging as Milton Babbitt to Jimi Hendrix. Yes, I Really Did draws on memories of Beethoven.
I actually had a dream one night where I was hearing some music by Beethoven that I had never heard before and awoke with two motivic ideas still in my head. After checking to see that this was not really anyone else’s music, I used one as the opening of a new piece. To get performers thinking along the same lines, I even wrote “Think Beethoven” at the top of the score. This all felt very dangerous at the time (thus, my title), but I wanted to see how such suggestive and tonal material might be used convincingly in a nontonal context.
The piece is partly about ghosts of tonality. While the material is Beethoven-like, the structure is more about Brahms – his mastery of tonal ambiguity – of implying one direction, then revealing another – the art of witholding. The opening bars of my piece project an unfolding sense of tonality that might ultimately confirm one of several keys. The phrase moves to a clear cadential figure, complete with a trill. We cannot help but hear this as the dominant of E major and expect a strong cadence in E. The arrival though, is thwarted and we find ourselves in very nebulous (and certainly not tonal) territory. The surface details of voice-leading, ornamentation, and the like are carried forward, but we already know that this piece is not going to do what we expected. The opening is a kind of slow introduction and is followed by a high energy Presto in dotted figures. The way in which the piece moves from its slow to fast (or fast to slow) music – how one withholds or strengthens the progress of the other – is a central feature of the narrative.
Version: second piano trio
Year composed: 1998
Ensemble type: Chamber or Jazz Ensemble, Without Voice:Piano Trio
Instrumentation: 1 Piano, 1 Violin, 1 Cello